I'm floating out here on the ocean just noticing all the waves I can ride. people drifting by me.... and I am fascinated. entirely fascinated by the lives of everyone. i must admit a beautiful curiosity that compels me to stare.
beautiful you.
and you.
and you.
ah. you beautiful sexy delicious people all around me.
i love watching you live.
does God feel like me?
able to see even more... and just awe inspired by the way people walk and breathe and sleep.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Saturday, April 19, 2008
even more
I've been a little restless. I've been feeling the edges of my life inch outwards to create a larger map around me.
everything I have enjoyed... i still enjoy.
i still love the taste, still savor the memories.
but the edges of my boundaries are swaying.
the water in the bathtub overflowed yesterday when I got in... bubbles sloshed onto the floor and splattered. i liked the sound.
i loved the hot hot too hot water that wrapped me up and got the back of my hair wet even though i had it all swooped up with a clip.
i floated on the waves of my bathtub ocean.
everyday can be better than the last???
is this really true?
can each present moment fully satisfy me
me?
i am searching out the fullest enjoyment of life.
i want it all.
i have written this many times in my journals. i want it all.
and do i really think i can have it all.
in my depth of being i do.
my never ending body of being that reaches to the edges of the universe is tasting every flavor. lick lick guzzle guzzle up the goodness
and its not all "good"
some of it is painful, some of it is stretching limits, exploring what we do not want. but that is good too really..
but... i am here today thinking about what i DO want!
and I want even more.
i am drawing the line around me just a little larger and timidly stepping out another mile in my perimeter.
new boundary.
new willingness.
*****
everything I have enjoyed... i still enjoy.
i still love the taste, still savor the memories.
but the edges of my boundaries are swaying.
the water in the bathtub overflowed yesterday when I got in... bubbles sloshed onto the floor and splattered. i liked the sound.
i loved the hot hot too hot water that wrapped me up and got the back of my hair wet even though i had it all swooped up with a clip.
i floated on the waves of my bathtub ocean.
everyday can be better than the last???
is this really true?
can each present moment fully satisfy me
me?
i am searching out the fullest enjoyment of life.
i want it all.
i have written this many times in my journals. i want it all.
and do i really think i can have it all.
in my depth of being i do.
my never ending body of being that reaches to the edges of the universe is tasting every flavor. lick lick guzzle guzzle up the goodness
and its not all "good"
some of it is painful, some of it is stretching limits, exploring what we do not want. but that is good too really..
but... i am here today thinking about what i DO want!
and I want even more.
i am drawing the line around me just a little larger and timidly stepping out another mile in my perimeter.
new boundary.
new willingness.
*****
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
You can put your Mind in Order....
You can put your mind in order by focusing on one thing at a time, doing it well, and appreciating the opportunity that this doing offers.
You can put your life in order by admitting to yourself what you really want to experience, and taking one step at a time that will move you closer to that experience.
You can put your environment in order by clearing out the old, worn-out, broken, and useless things that are taking up space.
You can put your spirit in order by replacing fearful, doubtful, angry thoughts with thoughts about the grace of God, and by accepting that God’s purpose, plan and will for you is the orderly development of your soul’s identity.
~ author unknown
You can put your life in order by admitting to yourself what you really want to experience, and taking one step at a time that will move you closer to that experience.
You can put your environment in order by clearing out the old, worn-out, broken, and useless things that are taking up space.
You can put your spirit in order by replacing fearful, doubtful, angry thoughts with thoughts about the grace of God, and by accepting that God’s purpose, plan and will for you is the orderly development of your soul’s identity.
~ author unknown