i only had one match

i only had one match tonight.
i looked down at it and something burned in me.
i lit my candle on my desk and i opened the window as wide as it could open.

the breeze is blowing in and it feels just like summer
i am listening to good music and i feel so fabulous and mellow
this is the bliss of evening
alone with this moment

.........

so many thoughts have been roaming around in my head this weekend that i reallly don't know how to write in words.
maybe i'll just write it with my life
live it out

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love more
love myself more
because its always about me
it always comes back to me
loving me

and if i have only one match.... i'm going to light the fire in my own heart
and watch that flame warm me
and those who come closer
will be warmed by
love that starts in me and burns wide around me

morning in the sunshine

i'd like to dance in the morning sun
and sing yeah yeah yeah
i'd like to untie my heartstrings
and reach my arms up over my head and
sing yeah yeah yeah

i'd like to kiss my wishes
and call in the longing and say
oh yeah yeah yeah

I am amazed by the moment.
this present moment.
where the sun sprinkles on the toes of my feet
and the music in the air fills the lungs so fully
the body is humming along.

right here is here for me
i am limitless
i am love
every corner of love


and i am saying
yeah yeah yeah

How Wide Can you Open the Doors to your Heart?

how wide can you open the doors to your heart?
will you open yourself to love ..... even if you have been hurt before?
or will you close yourself and hide away.

how wide can you open the doors to your heart?
can you let love in ?

each day
each and every moment we inhale a breath
we have a chance to let love in.
or we have a chance to hold it out. push it away.
will you let love in?

how open can you be? how much love can you let in
how long can you hold the doors open before you get scared and start to pull away?
imagining a memory repeated again today. but not necessarily.

how far have you taught yourself to walk on that sometimes frightening path of sweet surrender.

can you hold the doors open with your own two hands
when the emergency light starts flashing and the automatic lock down starts closing all the windows, pulling all the doors shut and sounding the alarms.
can you hold the doors open anyway. right then.
hold them there and breath?
hold the doors open and let love in anyway.
let it pour into you
in the midst of fear


ahh let it rain
let it rain
let it rain
let it rain love on the open door to your heart

and when you stand there with the tears in your eyes and your hand on your heart
trying to love
know that you are here choosing more
choosing more
love
more rain
let it pour
let it pour
let it rain on you

beautiful soul
beautiful darling soul
let your heart stay open when you want to
put up that stone cold wall of silence.
resist
resist that
and fall into love instead

open the doors to your heart and let love stay flowing in and out with you
through you
to you
from you

~dedicated to the moment when the heart wants to close up and hide away.
& in honor of the moment when we can walk even farther into love instead

this was written while it rained today

i wanna talk to you

its evening..
and i find myself here at the end of my day, quite chilled out and happy feeling.

lots of thoughts swimming around. and I have a strong desire for connection to the world of people a round me today. i am mentally very talkative.
so many cool people walking around....
so many people I would like to talk to. some that i did connect with... others i just watched walk by. we smiled. some of us said hello.
so many of you people out there... and I wanna talk to you.

what do you think?
where do you want to go? do you like to travel? how far are you willing to travel? how long could you stay?

what do you wake up for in the morning?
what keeps you interested?
in your life....


is there something guiding you?
or do you just kinda fumble around?
not that there is really anything wrong with fumbling ... sometimes thats where the best stuff happens... on the way to nowhere in particular.

in fact i think i might like all the meandering path kinda stuff more than the specific destination.

but anyway.
what do you think? because i like talking about what you think.
ahahha

really i do.
i like people.
i like how we are all connected somehow.
even those of us who seem so far away .... have some line of connection.
and that amuses my mind.

so hey world. hey people.
consider a little more connection. a little more talking. sharing. exchanging.
i think it might be good for all of us.
maybe offer us something different. something more.
and i like the idea of that.

in a moment

in a moment
i felt my heart beat
i felt my head think
i felt myself
in touch with the universe around me

i felt connected
touching
rubbing together
with the life around me
like music rubbing against the inside of the speakers.
pushing hard enough against the surface to push through and travel
sound
loud and speaking out loud

in a moment
everything disconnected can connect
in a moment
rays of sunshine light can dance on my eyelids
in a moment
i can see everything clearly